There are moments in the living of life where things happen, where choices are made, that will irrevocably change absolutely everything that happens from the next tick tock of the clock onward.
In the living of the life as M, I have a few of these crucial moments burned into my memory. Some of them were things that happened to me. Others are of the nature of an active choice I was making where I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt in the moment of my choosing that I was irrevocably closing and opening doors that could never be undone. Things done to us or things chosen by us, ultimately, the result is the same…it is an expanding and contracting of potentials as I was moving into living my next moment in time. I was still alive within the same breathing body, but in the next moments as a M that forever would be changed.
So, ever wake up one morning and realize deep inside that the branch of the path or fork in the road we have been seemingly forced down by others choices or started down based on our own, is not bringing the scenery into view that we thought would be there or we are not enjoying the current view life that moment is affording? Ever wish you could go back and have a redo to undo?
Forks in the road of time only go forward in my current ability to access them.
However, we are never stuck and learning to love what currently is just as it is, is one of the tools of true freedom and empowerment on this planet. Loving the fork we are on, the one we have been given, the one we have chosen makes all the difference in the world.
Absolutely everything can change in a moment. But it is always in the next moment, not the last. It is our current moment that determines our trajectory. BLINK and ones whole life can shift. I have discovered that at the surface layer of reality, one of the only things we can actively control at any given moment is how we respond to the next breath, the next step, without chaining ourselves to moments already lived in a past that we cannot change.
We can sit on the sidelines in the current moment’s experience of the details of our life full of regret and lamentation and sorrow and throw endless pitty parties for our seeming misfortune (wrong place, wrong time) or our seeming stupidity (wrong choice) -OR- we can choose to learn/remember to love the current breath that we have, just as we have it. Doing so puts our living back out into a forking flow of new potentials again. And with the call for help, within love, it always appears.
Whenever I think I have it bad, I remember and bow to those that have had the courage to get out the duct tape and f*cking hang ten anyway…any way they can.
SPACE. THE REAL THING. I DON’T SEE WHY I COULDN’T. BEING…PART OF EVERYTHING. DREAM AND IT IS POSSIBLE.
This incredible woman and her stunning friend simply ROCK!
You think your life sucks and things are bad and this has happened to you and you chose incorrectly back when and now can’t shouldn’t wouldn’t…too broken, too hurt, too many limitations, too much baggage…blah blah blah.
I will compassionately tell you to tell those thoughts to f*ck off.
They are just that…thoughts. And the only way thoughts gain power into action in our lives is when we believe them.
There is only ever really a won’t.
How empowering is that? When we realize this, the fork appears again and again in time and anything becomes possible.
LOVE LOVE LOVE.