Simply stated, in the sincere hope of gifting the reader out there a little chuckle today, might I offer a snapshot of a moment frozen in time… a picture taken down off the wall of the house of the ghostly spirits of a past M:
It is not necessarily the proudest moment to recount here, but yes it is true, there was a small window of time in my life, vintage mid-2004 (lasting exactly the full length of the traveling time to, and sitting down at, an Eckhart Tolle Meetup group gathering sponsored in NYC) where my only motivation for seeking out and attending the event was in a very clumsy and naive attempt to go fishing for (and I directly quote my mental checklist of that time here):
a “spiritual and awake” man worth dating in NYC
“M, oy veh!”
-lol- & -lol-
This was a night I gifted my bad old little self a moment of what I can so clearly see now as profoundly, beautiful weakness. It was unawareness in breathtakingly silly motion, fueled by loneliness with that special added splash of a small feeling of awareness as to the first slowings of that biologically tic tic ticking clock. What a strange, and irrational sense of momentary panic this particular feeling combination seemed to induce in me back then!
That night, I entered the room of the event (about 250 people gathered) and took my seat. Right when my neck started to attempt to turn the head to begin visually scanning the room, I instantly encountered a massive bubble of laughter. It began to make it’s way into my throat, resulting from a powerful flash of brutal self honesty about the ridiculousness of what I was just about to attempt to do. (Hey, was that just a snippet of Berry White I heard attempting to piggy back as the background soundtrack for my writing here? -lol) However, as funny as this moment was, it was laughter that in the moment I had to IMMEDIATELY choke-back-down (GULP).
For those of you who have never found yourselves in the midst of their own version of attempting to date Mr. Tolle, I will share with you the fun fact that all Eckhart endorsed events are intended to be SILENT gatherings! Shhh Berry, shhh. lol
So, recomposing myself with the hasty mental retreat being beat back from the temporary insanity of being lost in the illusion of dating from the separated self, I quietly sunk back into my seat and proceeded to just enjoy the Tolle video teaching shared. At it’s conclusion, I took this newly upgraded, more honest and more self aware self and left once again alone to go home with her. However, I am pleased to report that with a tenderness full of first date good manners, I did take her out to dinner by myself to celebrate the bit of hard won awareness upgrade at a 24 hr diner just down the street. 🙂
So, once we know what we now know when we are sure that we know it 🙂 , just how does the SSS woman in the city (that would be s.ingle s.exy s.piritual) actually really go about finding and meeting the man of her dreams?
She first works on connecting to him by becoming him within her self.* Huh? (just what seemingly androgynous pretzel of a sentence is that?) *note not herself
Love Tolle style:
It is the recognition of yourself, in the essence of self which you can then find and share in the other. True love is then known to be found in recognition of the oneness of all life.
So, one must know and be “one self”, to authentically be in position ready and able to meet it in another outside oneself. Wholeness with presence alone, to the best of our ability to gift it to ourselves, within ourselves, then resonates out and begins the process of big mind field attraction in the external world for the experiencing of it being in a state of together.
Meet-ups can still be enjoyed then for celebrating the inner relationship, but attendance at them for external dating purposes is never required. 🙂
And as for all that biological clock motion back in those days???
Ladies (and for any Gent interested), in my experience, it is all already taken care of in learning to love and honor the synchronization of ODD SYMPATHY (I ADORE that it is called that!!!) physics of our biological pendulums for the quantum harmonic oscillators that they actually are. 🙂 What is set in motion in our biology from PURE intent, oscillates out and becomes just what big mind intends it to be. Accessing looking at our lives from that level of awareness, if it is a fact that you have a child, it is not ever a mistake. If it is a fact that you do not have a child, it is not a mistake. Ever. Biological clocks never factor in. Ever. 🙂
(If Eckhart were running match.com, I think he would approve this message… and I even think he would have been OK if that laugh that night had actually escaped into and out of my mouth with Berry playing accompaniment, too! He seems to have a good sense of humor. His own little breathy erupting chuckle, still today, never fails to make me lol along with him as well 🙂 ).